A Struggle

So today it begins
silence was never a solution
should you know, speak -
otherwise, consent will always die with an assumption
disappointment?
Nope, it was always the ramification of a big mistake

Hope is A Heavenly Gift

Hope is something that people set their eyes on
A passive fuel for the desire for greater transformation and success
But many fail to realise that faith, is the greatest key to hope.
With hope, the platform takes height to greater levels of propellance-
A path to the finish line

Dont loose hope- youre almost there
I know you can make it
I trust in your abilities, no matter how you may think i am disappointed in you
What are families for?
Do me proud, my dearest and most loving kin

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Oh what shall i say
Oh what shall i do

My fortress, My Refuge

When I wander through the desert
And I'm longing for my home
All my dreams have gone astray
When I'm stranded in the valley
And I'm tired and all alone
It seems like I've lost my way

I go running to Your mountain
Where your mercy sets me free

You are my strong tower
Shelter over me
Beautiful and mighty
Everlasting King
You are my strong tower
Fortress when I'm weak
Your name is true and holy
And Your face is all I seek

In the middle of my darkness
In the midst of all my fear
You're my refuge and my hope
When the storm of life is raging
And the thunder's all I hear
You speak softly to my soul

Now I'm running to your mountain
Where your mercy sets me free

An expectation

Wiktionary says that an expectation is "The prospect of the future; grounds upon which something excellent is expected to occur; prospect of anything good to come"
so the question lies whether can people deliver expectations?

Answer is more often than not. a no
you see, we humans are so accustomed to visually impress
that our heart and emotions become the canopy of our blanketed exterior
in other words is our heartbeat really for what we mean?

well, i wont say human arent credible sources
but its true to say that they ,more often than not, hold the bulk of disappointment
expectation isnt a worry
the worry comes, when the attempt to meet that expectations is faltered by your past or hidden character
now i aint sure, is it me or the rest?

for it was out of the concern i did those
but, i guess being overprotective does have its complications
complacency and faith arent good friends
but you have shown that words from the mouth only hold poison
bears no fruit

oh Lord, i trust only in you
i humble myself before you
please, grant me your wisdom,peace and help me with my worries

Footprints

One night I dreamed a dream.
I was walking along the beach with my Lord. Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to me and one to my Lord.

When the last scene of my life shot before me I looked back at the footprints in the sand. There was only one set of footprints. I realized that this was at the lowest and saddest times of my life. This always bothered me and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma.

"Lord, You told me when I decided to follow You, You would walk and talk with me all the way. But I'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life there is only one set of footprints. I just don't understand why, when I need You most, You leave me."

He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you, never, ever, during your trials and testings. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you."

Exponentiality

Sometimes i wonder,
I am really doing the right thing?
That very last hurdle that i desperately seek to be cleared, is still there
But i know, your grace erodes it, slowly everyday

The change that many inspire-
Requires unprecedented time, compassion and God
That change you seek for your dear ones, will come provided you do what needs to be done- to mature in him

Humility is the biggest flaw of us all
Its through this anger, lust and everything else takes form
So if one were to humble himself in all aspects regardless of whether he was rich in content
The future riches are all his:)

So exponentiality?
I will entrust that to you, at your beautiful timing

Grace From The Inside Out

walking this path was meant to be a difficult one

and i told you from the start

Now is the time, i extend my final invitation with grace

walk with me, leave EVERYTHING behind for his sake

will you?

trust him.

trust him for his miracle and his deliverance

for its more than just about you

by now you should know, we cant control our lives and its temptation

so trust him

this is the least we could do for his sacrifice

use that maturity to belittle that temptation like how i said to you today

for thats how i sustained

So the question is will you walk with me once more brother, this time with all your heart?

God give me the strength please

its more than just a compromise luh.
Compromise belittles the meaning of friendship:)
Its more of an eternal covenant... Up for that? :D

I need your strength , wisdom and miracle power- now. More than ever i need it.
I want to serve your heart, but please clear my way
I humble myself before you, surrendering all as i seek your anointment.
You'll come, i know it:)

Its more than just a Coup de Grace

Its more that just a recount or an episode in the friendship. yes, you have had understood part 1 and part 2, but you dont quite yet see the picture.

The Unspoken power of Foregiveness

You know, today was an awesome day as it was filled with simply awesome testimonies and of course miracles. But i got a glimpse of forgiveness, just as i was interceding in covariance. The fact is, the power of forgiveness sees no formidable threat or opponents!

Its amazing the amount of love and concern forgiveness summons, but the summoner needs to have LOADS of concern for that particular person. I guess, i feel more than usual for people now, even more so for strangers! freaky some might say, but skans rock heart has officially metamorphosed into a soft one with sensitivity and love.

I love it and he doesn't see them as burdens. The smiles of others is food of joy to him :D

Is something really amiss?

so fare the hardest challenge for me in others is to deliver the strongest form of conviction amongst others. there are quite a few ways to establish that conviction-

1. to imprint my visualization so vividly into another, which means an active replace of ideals (Meta-idealism)

2. A long process of much urging and explanation, in view to gain understanding of partner by promoting unit-secularity amongst people amongst conversation (commonly known as convincing people, without interfering with their thoughts)

3. The promotion of unilateral/desired thoughts through fact linearities coherent to nature of ideal shift

Having analyzed these three factors aint the main struggle, but the application is where the glitches reveal like sparkling diamond. The application takes a gruesome detour when each medication surfaces its own laxative, allergenic and withdrawal effect- of course all in the name of emotions and thoughts.

So how and when you judge? Honestly,I don't know and thats what i still struggle with till this day. But one thing is for sure, with faith it will be revealed to you for which is the desired solution with the best overall status : "All is Green"

Its more than just a recount

You know, analogies can be great. But the concept of analogy illustrates how afraid we people are of being binded by the truth. Human complacency and desires, gratifies a whole new dimension of accelerated predicaments.

But these very same predicaments have a flashing EXIT sign. The option lies within the grasp of our sweaty palms filled with adversity and perplexity.

And admist all this, the choice i took was a logically futile, but as long as i know that you are the cleanser and majesty, what are all these perplexity?Forgive me, for my disbelief and sinfulness. I love you the most.I shall spear through, all in your name. Praises shall reign on you, forever and more:)

Speechless

Have i given up?

Is it over?

i dont have the answers to them.

My heart tells me i need you, badly.

But every action u do seems otherwise from what you say

Now my brain tells me i can do without you

its more than just feeling

remember you said, it matters whether we can last

But, now it seems almost impossible to prolong it

speechless. your tears are shared by mine.

i am just challenged by so many things

i am not sure whether i can spare some of me, for you

what if i am not good enough?

I guess, being selfish isnt a good thing

Like you said, You'll be fine without me

I Wish..

have you ever felt lost in your own thoughts?
Where your judgements are clouded with your perceptions?
Where you are, in a sense under duress to make a move but afraid it might ruin everything?
Thats exactly whats running through my head

I miss the days when language was still a baby. Things were more... Lets say direct?:):) hahas.

And I thought that i was complicated!:)
Hehe:)
IMY, but no balls:(:(